Can't take away HOPE....

Alright...since it's only people that care about and/or love us, who read my blog... and since when most of you ask me anything about our fertility issues, I usually just cry knowing that you care, making everyone in the process feel bad....here's the latest:

No, the 3 months of Clomid did not work.

No, what we were SO hoping would happen did not.

Yes, we do now have an appointment at a fertility specialist in Houston...the earliest appointment they could give me was in mid-October.

Yes, it is discouraging(I try not to think about the fact that when my parents were my age(34), I was 14).

Yes, if we ever do get pregnant I will be considered high-risk due to my now-age.

Yes, I know God's in control.

Yes, 3 years of trying seems like forever, until I remember that some have been trying way longer than I.

No, we can't start the adoption process until next October, our 5 year anniversary date(when there's a past divorce involved, most adoption agencies require you to have 5 years "under your belt" before you can apply...understandably so).

Yes, everyone around me, family and friends has had or are having babies and I am happy for them.

Yes, I fight the urge to be bitter.

No, I do not understand God sometimes, but I still have to trust Him.

No, I'm not alone. I have a wonderful husband who hurts too, for himself and for me.

Yes, I do know that God has a plan, and that HE IS GOOD.

Some days the lump in my throat over our fertility issues stays there the entire day long and I fight the tears constantly, and some days I just tell myself to think HAPPY thoughts and ask HIM to help me/us. HE does, 'cause HE is GOOD.

What would our lives be without the HOPE that we know we have in HIM? At least you can't take HOPE away. I know we all have something that we hope for...hope for someone we love to succeed, hope for the memory of our loved ones to be carried on, hope for a baby, hope for a home, hope for your kids, hope for finances, hope for a job, hope for health, hope for HEAVEN. Let's just keep hopin' (and praying)together. It makes me feel better knowing I'm not alone in my HOPE for something.

Will you just continue to pray GOD'S WILL in our struggle? Thanks for caring.
XOXOXOXO-misty:)

Top Dogs!

Chuck is calling this their "TOP DOGS" year since they are both in grades that are the oldest at their schools...Maddi in her last year of Junior High and Mason in his last year of Elementary! Can't believe we've made it this far...Whew! It ain't easy, people! Ha!

They both did great and loved their first day of school! We're praying that this will be a great year for both of them.

Maddi-1st day of 8th grade

Mason-1st day of 5th grade

TOP DOGS!!!

Wish we were still there....

Inks Lake

Summer of 2009

Wouldn't trade it for anything.

Family, friends, loved ones...relaxing days....fun....memories...blessed times together.

Inks Lake

Summer of 2009

My Mom's Big 5-4 at Inks Lake!

So....while we were at the lake(which I need to post pictures of, by the way), we celebrated my mom's birthday.

The kids made her a cake and decorated it themselves...

It was also my Papa and Gram's anniversary...

The famous..."hey maaaaaan" pose...

The only pictures I got of my mom at the lake were her with her "grandies" and her sister's "grandies". That's her word for her grandkids that she loves so very much.

That's my mom. All about her fam. Always has been and always will. That's what I love most about her. Wouldn't trade her for the world and I feel EXTREMELY blessed knowing that God made her MY mom. Happy Birthday Mom. I love you. We love you....

misty, chuck, maddi and mason and all the rest of the fam!

Back in the groove...

Getting back in the groove from vacation isn't easy, but getting up this morning for bootcamp helped, it always jump starts my day! Ahhhhh......bootcamp, my love/hate relationship with you is what it is! Waking up at 4:50 every morning is SO NOT MY THING! The only thing that makes it better is when my SHISTER and MOM are there! Lana was the one who got us all started in this thing to begin with! Here's the latest picture of us...I'm at the very bottom left corner in the blue sleeveless, mom's above me in the red, and Lana's next to her in brown. I like the way the two of them did the same pose....ha! Goofballs!

Seriously, I feel blessed after every workout, knowing that I am able to use my arms and legs, especially working with students every day who are not able to do so. I get teary thinking about it. We just can't take for granted what God has given us! Go move your body today and be blessed and thankful!