Anxiety

The nerves and anxiety have started to kick in. A girl in our ward told me about what goes on today at the hospital for this kind of thing. She works in that department. They have you meet with a nutritionist and a dietitian so that you can eat right and they check your blood sugar constantly. You don't even have to wear a nasty hospital gown!! That's exciting. But things still have me nervous and emotional. I'm not quite sure what it is but, I feel as though I could cry at any second. Then Adam would ask what's wrong and I feel there is nothing really wrong. There is nothing ever really wrong. I'm just very emotional and hormonal right?

I did finally read the first of the Twilight books. I started it two weeks ago at my doctor's appointment and finished chapter one, then I read all the rest of it this past Wednesday. Adam told me to put it down to do my homework, but I couldn't. I read chapters 2-21 that day and finished the book. Anyone that knows me knows that I hate reading with a passion. I never read in school I would read tidbits here and there, but never a whole book. I just couldn't get interested in them. I borrowed the second one from a good friend of Kari's. Well she's my friend too, but through Kari I suppose. So I'll have something good and productive to do at the hospital while I am sitting there doing nothing. (I hope your proud Caryn!)

Halloween

Everyone knows that Adam wants to name Baby Haynes Batman. Last night I showed him a picture of Ashna (a family friend) and how cute it was that she dressed her tummy up like a jack-o-lantern for Halloween since he hasn't had her baby yet to actually dress up. Adam thought it was a great idea and found a picture like the one below.



He printed it out, cut around the oval and taped it to my stomach and said the baby is batman. Adam just wants the kid in kindergarten to walk up to his teacher or other kids and with a very straight face say "I am batman!" He can be a little ridiculous.

So the nerves haven't kicked in yet for Monday, but you can sure bet that by tomorrow night or possibly earlier I'll start getting nervous. I was nervous for my gallbladder surgery. I remember when Grammer (mom's mom) paid me to go to the doctor without crying. If I wouldn't cry she would give me money....I cried a lot of the time. I am a wuss when it comes to pain. I don't do it...I don't like it. That's why I think I was freaking out after my surgery when the nurse wanted me to get up and go to the bathroom before I left. They wouldn't let me have anything to eat or drink. Mom forced a spoonful of crappy soup down my throat...and I told her not to give me anymore. She tried it and said it was bad. They even turned off my IV. How could I go to the restroom without fluids in me? Hello talk about hard. I didn't want to get up because I didn't have to go and didn't want to cause myself pain. So then I puked all over the bathroom (I couldn't get low enough to the toilet just having surgery and all) that the nurse was fortunate enough to clean up. Lucky her huh. I don't do anything that would inflict pain on myself. Adam knows I don't take pain well. So I'll post and let you know how it goes...I'll tell Adam to post and tell you how it really went so you may have to check both our blogs.

Doctor Update

Well after talking to the doctor's office, the specialist is the only one down here that has jurisdictions at the same hospital my ob/gyn does. My doctor said that it was ultimately up to me which endocrinologist I choose, but if I use a different one and end up at a hospital, they couldn't come down here to nederland/pt arthur and he couldn't go up to beaumont. I love my doctor. He is very straight forward and answers any and all questions I have.

After many tears have been shed of not knowing what to do, reading the scriptures, saying our prayers and Adam and Matt giving me a blessing, we have decided that we want my doctors to be able to see me at the hospital and not just some random doctor that I've never met. (Course if my doctor's aren't on call that weekend I understand it might happen anyways...but my chances are better.) We are going to head to the hospital Monday morning and we'll see what happens.

I know people may have doubts and concerns for us and our little family, but we feel that we need to do this for the safety of me and the baby. We appreciate the thoughts and concerns. We have taken everyone's opinions into consideration and I think that is why I have been in tears so much is because I feel torn in several different directions. I feel I need to listen to this person or do what this other person says, but when it all comes down to it, our little family talked about all the different directions we could go and the things we've heard and taken it into consideration. We then prayed about them and we feel this is the best thing for us right now.

I am going to have to miss class, but it's worth it to make sure the baby and me will be okay. Wish us luck and keep us in your prayers. We'll update you next week when get home and let you all know what's going on.

The Results are In...

The doctor called and said that my three hour glucose test came back abnormal. They want me to see a specialist that wants me to be admitted to the hospital Monday at 7 am and stay for two days. Hospital? Are you kidding me... I am going to call the doctor back in the morning to see if there are any other options or a different specialist I can see. I don't want to miss two classes...I will if I have to but I don't want to. I hate the idea of hospitals and needles and doctors. So we'll see what the doctor says tomorrow. Wish me luck.

so...

say a little prayer for us...

Cats!

So ever since I can remember my mom has made us Cat Cookies. She makes sugar cookies and puts a peppermint patty on the cookie for the body and then two chocolate chips makes up the head and one makes up the tail. She sets the chips on there and lets them get melty and then uses a toothpick to form the head and tail. Here are some pictures...

This is her forming the head on one of the cookies. The bottom cookie hasn't been formed yet.
This is her working on the other cookie. You can see the cat on the one she just finished.

This is the finished product.

Don't they look good??

That's that in a nut shell.

Speeches, Tests, and a Birthday

I "get" to give my dreaded speech on Thursday. We have had 9 people go so far and he was looking for three volunteers so I volunteered. I'm so nervous. It's my How To...I just have to figure out what to do a How To about. My professor looked at me after one of the speeches that went today and said see me after class. I was so nervous. I wasn't sure if I had done something wrong or not. That's his thing. He always says see me after class. So after class I packed my bag and walked up to talk to him and he said "when is your due date?" And I answered "January 20". He said "okay it's after the semester is over, but if for some reason something happens I want you to have my home number so you can call and let me know what's going on and if you need to take the final early, I will work with you and give you the information to study and a review." He gave me his phone number and I said "Thank you so much" and left the class. I am so excited to have a professor as nice as Mr. Warren is. He is a professor that actually cares about his students. It is amazing.

After I left school, I went and picked up my lab report from the doctor so I could do my little three hour blood glucose test. Wahoo. I tried to go do the test today, but they closed at noon for lunch and it was 9:47. Are you kidding me? They open at 7 tomorrow so looks like I am headed there in the morning. For the three hour one, you can't eat or drink anything after midnight. It's so crazy. I wish I could have gotten it done and over with.

Today is one of my older brother's birthday. If I was craving a cookie, I would have gone and gotten him one that said Happy Birthday Court on it or something to that sort since he lives 2 1/2 hours away. I wouldn't drive to bring it to him or anything. I would just take a picture to let him know I was celebrating. But I haven't wanted any real sweets lately. So I'll just post it here for him...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY COURT! HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY!

that's that in a nut shell.