Just For Bryan

So i finally decide to post something and go to find the NEW POST button....you know that one in big letters with blue all around it? Some how i missed it completely! So i have decided that either I'm going completely blind or its been so long since my last post i almost don't remember anything about blogging. School is about to start *tear* i am not ready for school. i don't want to go back to school. (but then again what 16 year old does?). I figure since i only have this year and my senior year i will go and just think about it all being over with! I will endure and be happy about the end! Only....after the end of high school is the beginning of college...I am only trying to decide on if college will be what i think it is.

-COLLEGE-
-You pick your classes (besides the required ones)
-You get to study what you want
-You get to pick what days you go to school and on which days to take what classes

-SO-
I want to be a pastry chef....(maybe)....im thinking....
-But if i choose to go that route how long will i be studying before i get to do what i love?
-How many years will i have to work in a bakery washing dishes and slowly working my way up?
-How many years will i be barley scraping by with the little to no money?

I know that this happens to everyone....you have to go through it all to get to the top where you wanna be. I wanna open my own bakery...I wanna design cakes...wedding cakes...birthday cakes...just any type of cakes...

I find it fascinating!! I love it!! I think what pastry chefs do is totally amazing! You really have to be talented. You have to be artistic. You have to love what you do to succeed. If you come over to the house and its around 6 pm on a week night you will see me turning to channel 51 (food network) looking to see just what food network challenge is on. If it is cakes I will watch!! And it tends to always work that way. If its Monday night at 9 pm i will turn to Chanel 43 (TLC) to watch Cake Boss. I love these shows they are amazing!!

I guess that is all I really have to say....I'm not sure where i was going with this but i said what i felt like saying and hats that...

I LOVE Y'ALL!!!

another

Jennifer.....i cant read your blog. thought you should know....I'm not invited so i cant read anything. anyways i am extremely tired right now!! work makes my feet hurt which makes me tired!!....oh well its only every once in a while i feel like this. so yes how are things so weird now?? it seems that things get really weird really fast!!...hmmmm......well yes i plan to be able to get a good nights sleep tonight which means......that i will go to sleep & not wake up at all!!!....oh that would be so delightful! i want to have a good...GREAT....nights sleep just once. i haven't been able to do that in a long while....sigh.... SO i love you all and hope that you all are doing just grand!! & i hope yall have a good night!!

an actual post

hello everyone!! wow i am actually gonna do a post!! i am so sorry to everyone that ever wanted me to post & i just didn't...well not much new with me. i do have a job now! i work at the movie theater (cinema 10) & i like it. its a fun job & its easy (normally)...so anyways.....I'm not really sure what to talk about.... so much drama going on.... i am really happy that school is out & that summer is here!! its time for summer because school just lasts waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay to long for me! WOW i am going to be a junior this next year!!!!!! ITS SO SHOCKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am actually kind of scared!! no not for my junior year just the fact that it is my junior year. i don't think i am old enough for it. i am shocked that i have been in school for so long. its weird.....i am watching some travel channel right now and its about sharks that smell really bad....or something like that....its a food thing. & it says that the sharks smell so bad that people like pass out from the smell & they get violently ill.....its sad....well i don't have much else to say but i FINALLY posted!! & i love you all!!!

Posting

Jennifer no i have not forgotten. I am sorry guys I just really do not have any time to blog!! I mean i have softball every day wether it is games or just practice and i am to tired to blog!! I really do not have anything to say... I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!

phone...

I am on the phone....I promise i will post something good this weekend!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

Ok Jennifer!!

Jennifer I am posting for you!! My life is going pretty much fine right now. Good days and bad days!! Currently my leg hurts from softball!! I have a bunch of little scratches from sliding into 2nd....oh well it happens! So softball is going good right now! I am currently practicing at 1st base and outfield. I love it! So nothing else really is going on....it is kind of boring! lol!!. I am going to the basketball game tomorrow. We are playing Hot Springs! And we better win!!!! I am playing in pep band so I will be able to play my saxophone and watch the game!! YAY!!!! I love it!!! Well Jennifer that is it for now. I love you all!!!

Toe....

In case you haven't heard Jessica has dislocated her 4th toe....not fun!! She is fine now, however; she is just a little...well a lot sore. She does however have her priority a little mixed up. She getting ready to go to a basketball game last night. She went running down the stairs into the dining room and when she did that she slammed her foot into the door frame!! OUCH!!! Next she came into the family room fell down and....

1. Called Katie and told her she couldn't go to the game because she broke her toe. (She was completely fine when she called Katie. She wasn't crying and her voice didn't break once.)
2. Told Bryan to go get dad.
3. Once Bryan got back downstairs she asked if she was going to be able to bowl Monday.

Her toe was really nasty!! It was making a V shape with her 3rd toe. Really gross!! It was bleeding...and her pinkie toe is all scraped up. Yes she is fine and everything is fixed. She is just sore and is bruising but other than that she is perfect!! Well I love you all and hope you have a good rest of the weekend!!

This is a picture from the bottom of her foot

Church

Well I am really wanting to go to church tonight!! So I hope that my friend is able to take me to church. I really like this church it is called pointbreak. Now as most of you know I love the church that I go to!! No, not the Mormon church...I am sorry I am not hating on what you believe I just really don't like it there. I am talking about the church I go to with my dad and step mom the church name is Hamilton Church of God. We haven't gone to that church in a while....it is really sad....But some of my friends have invited me to go to this church many times. I have gone a couple of times and I really enjoy this church! It is great and is such a fun place to be and learn!! Well church tonight starts at 7 so i hope i get to go!! I love you all!

Music

I am currently listening to music that my dear sister Jennifer put on a CD for me. The song I am currently listening to is a song from Mulan!! I love it!! Anyways I had a good Christmas! I hope you all did to! Well today is the last day that Jennifer will be here!! :( I will miss you and your snoring!! When we go back to school I get to start softball!! YAY!!! It will be fun! Well I don't have much to say...But I love you all!!

Yes once again Twilight

I recently went to go see the Twilight movie. I went with Jessica and some friends! Well we went ti the 8 p.m. show and we had to be home at 10:30 so we only made it to the part where Bella is about to leave Alice and Jasper to go and find James. What i did see of the movie I liked!! Now I only have to go back and watch it all the way through! Lol. I can't wait!!! Well I have been very busy lately a lot has been going on!! I am currently on Eclipse in the Twilight series. I have had to be putting the Twilight books on hold because I have to read certain book for English class. Right now we have to read a novel and I picked Lucky by Alice Seabold. It is about a girl getting raped and waiting and seeking for the justice. It is very interesting. I like the book but I still cant wait to finish so I can pick up Eclipse again. I love you all and hope you all have a lovely holiday season!

Edward......Oh Twilight

So I am in love with Edward! I can't help but he is the perfect man!! I really wish that he was real. That would just be amazing. Stephanie Meyer knows how to write the perfect man! Anyways I know I have not posted in a while. 16 days I do believe! I am currently putting songs on the ipod I got for my birthday!! I love it!! It is purple!!! It was a great present!! Today is Jessica's birthday and we celebrated it yesterday (Dad is on 1st call today) and she got the digital camera that she wanted!! It is a very cute camera and I love it!!! And I know she loves it also!!! Well I really don't have much to say.... I love you all and I will post soon.

12 am

It is currently 9:18 and I am sitting in my bed room at moms house. I have a plan to stay up till 12 am for my birthday tomorrow which will be today in 2 hours and 40 min. I have decided that I was born at exactly 12 am. Now I know that I was not born at 12 am but I decided that that will be when I was born for 2 reasons.

1.) I don't have an original birth certificate...Mom doesn't have one and neither does dad

2.) Mom and dad don't remember what time I was born. And quite honestly I wouldn't expect them to. They had 9 kids and I find it a miracle that they can even remember the years we were born (well most of the time they can. Lol.)

Since it is 9:20 right now. I am kinda sad that it took me 2 minutes to type that little. I type fast it just took me that long because I have a lack of words. I have currently been in the happiest state of my life for the last several weeks, Everything has been good despite some things, but I still have been in a generally good mood. That is until about 4 today. I got sad and just started thinking. I know my life isn't going to change much once I am 16....Wow 16.... there is only one thing that will change.

I will be able to drive alone.

Does that mean I will? No. For one I don't have a job. I can't pay for insurance. And I don't have a car. I am fine with that. I am not complaining so don't get the wrong idea. It is just nice to be able to say I can drive legally by myself. It's a nice thought to know that I am growing up to be the young woman I am today. (Whether you like that women of not.) That is your personal opinion. But tonight I am just feeling like I have missed out on a big part of my life. I got diagnosed with diabetes at 7 years old. (I do NOT feel sorry for myself. I think it has made me to be more responsible and has made me who I am today.) But still I have lived 9 years with this disease. I was forced to grow up faster than any other normal kid. I missed out on some of the things that "normal" kids got to do. (What exactly is normal?) I feel like 9 years of my life have been taken away from me. Not to mention the fact that I got diagnosed during a particularly hard time in a young kids life. My mom and dad were getting a divorce. I have never really stopped to think about how that could have effected my life. Now don't get me wrong I really do believe that both my mom and dad have moved on to find people they are better suited for. I don't blame either one of them for anything that has happen. -What is meant to be will be.- I honestly do believe that. But when I think about all of this it makes me wonder how I ever made it through all this. I really do believe that I might have been depressed and I don't know if I have ever really gotten over any of this. I block out my childhood due to somethings I would rather not talk about. None of them have to do with my dad, just my mom. But I have never delt with any of it. And it makes me wonder if it is to late to deal with it. Is it ever to late to deal with anything? Is it to late to get back those 9 years? Is it to
late to talk about it?

This is one of my longest posts. This is my longest post. It is now 9:53 and I have spent 35 min. typing this. I have spent 35 min. talking about my feeling...or just simply rambling...you be the judge. I am going to go now. I love you all and I hope you all have a good night...or a good day. I only have 2 hours and 5 min. till 12 am now. I love you all.

Election

I COMPLETELY agree with Jennifer!!!! I find it VERY RUDE to get a phone call saying "Obama won!!" That is rude. I don't care how happy you are about it. Don't call me and tell me. Or rub it in my face. That it all about the election. I love you guys! This Friday is our last football game! :( that makes me really sad because I like the football games!! They are my most favorite thing to do in band!! Well besides playing a really fun piece of music were the Sax's. have a really fun part to play!!! And since the band doesn't play so much fun music.....or they do but it is really easy and therefor boring.....i have nothing to look forward to. But maybe they will start playing some fun stuff!!! That is all.....I love you!!!

Tired!

I am just so tired! No matter how much sleep I get I am still just so tired! And I do believe it is because I have a sleeping disorder. I was reading one of the diabetic magazines dad gets and gives it to me. (yes dad i really do read those) and in the magazine there was an article about sleeping disorders. They are apparently very common for diabetics and i have all the symptoms.

1. Snoring

2. Being extremely tired during the day

3. When your sleeping you cant breath so you are breathing so quietly people think you are dead. There is no movement in your chest.

And some other ones I cant really remember right now. But Bryan has told me before that he had went up stairs to tell me something and i was sleeping but he thought I was dead because I wasn't moving, and he couldn't hear me breath. Plus Jessica has told me the same thing. Also the fact that I do snore very loudly!

Well that is it for now. I love you all!!

At Home

So today I stayed home because I am not feeling so great. Well I hate not being able to have enough time to get on blogger and write new posts or read what everyone is up to. I miss that I have to say that I have gotten use to getting on and reading and posting. That was such a fun time in the summer when I could do that. Now that school has started I don't have much time to get on and its sad. Well this coming weekend there are many things going on. I do believe that we (me,Jessica, and mom) are going to see Melissa, Heath, Kayln, and Keali...I have missed you all so much and cant wait to see you!! I miss my family so much and its hard for it to only be me and Jessica in the house although Elizabeth comes to visit frequently. I still miss everyone. I love you all and wish you well!

New Layout

I decided it was time to get a new layout. Since it is Halloween season why not get a Halloween one? So I looked at the layouts and picked this purple one. I don't have much to say but I still haven't heard about my English paper. She is a very slow grader but she said she is done with them and all she has to do is make copies. I'm not sure why she needs copies though. Well in band we have learned the movements to the first 3 songs and we will start on learning the 4th on Monday. I don't have much to say so I'm gonna go. Happy birthday dad! I love you all!!!

Drops Of Jupiter

Drops of Jupiter by Train my favorite song. I love it. I am actually listing to it right now. I ha vent heard the song in so long! When i heard it last week i was like OH MY GOODNESS!!!! It made me realize just how much I loved the song. Now why am I writing a post about this song? Well I love music and I love reading. I especially love doing both at the same time! I actually had to write an essay this year about music. I had to choose 10 songs that meant a lot to me and explain why they meant so much to me. Now I got an A+ and she loved my essay. In the essays she would write her thoughts and what not on the page and just little comments about what we wrote. At the end she wrote a little paragraph about what she thought about the essay at the end. She told me she loved my writing. She said I had a great way of saying things, and that she thought I was a great writer.She also said she had enjoyed every bit of it and that she couldn't wait to read more of my writing. That made me very happy. I do love to write and I love to hear that other people really love my writing. Well that's all for now. Love you all!!

HMMM......................

I don't have much to say right now. I have bought New Moon and am reading it right now. I like it but...........I am at a certain part and I am now sad. I hope it won't last for long but who knows. I love you all and I will post more later when something interesting happens to me. I love you all....I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!

My Current Delma

I have been asked to write and essay in English. A personal essay about someone or something that ment a lot to us. I wrote and essay about grandpa Hale. I knew it would be hard to write about him but I never thought it would be this hard. There is just so much to say but not enough time to write it all down. I finished my essay and I have to say that I think it is pretty darn good! I am a good writer if I do say so myself. This essay got my point across and the people who have read it so far felt the emotions I wanted them to feel. Which to me is one of the most important things when writing. However I will not share this essay with anyone but my teacher and my peer editors. The reason is that sometimes when you write something you just cant share it with those who you love the most. Even if the loved the person you are writing about just as much. It is the one thing I will never let anyone else read. Now for my delma. I can not think of a title for this essay. It is about him but it includes everyone if us (The Hale family)in the essay. I just cant think of what to title it. Which is not good because it is due tomorrow but I will think of something good. I love you all very much and hope you all are having a great time doing whatever you are doing at the moment.

More Twilight Please!

I am finished with Twilight and i loved it! I need to go and buy New Moon now. I cant wait to start reading it. But before I start reading it I have to read another book first. This book will only take me a day or two to read. Its all a matter of finding time to read it. That is why it took me so long to read Twilight I just never had time to read. My friend wants me to read Solieder X so that is what I will be starting to read. I am not quite sure what it is about but they liked it and wanted me to read it so I am going to give it a shot. And after I am done with that book then I will be reading New Moon. Now nobody tell me what happens or I will be very upset!!! But I cant wait to start reading it!!!! I dont have much to say so I am going to go. I love you all very much!! And congrats on the job Melissa!!!!!!!!!!